little love

Whoever has been forgiven little, loves little.

Luke 7:47b

I am aware that my love might be little. 

Being sheltered from many temptations, I think perhaps I don't grasp the depth of God’s forgiveness like others may. 

I chew through more than a reasonable amount of grace and mercy daily, however I have never experienced a dramatic rescue from the chasm of decision induced separation.

A rescue so unfathomably unfair that one’s heart is made forever larger. Receiving a forgiveness so reckless, forever altering how one sees offenses against them. 

A small part of me is jealous of those who have been greedily snatched back under God’s wings. I long for the deeper capacity for love one can only know after experiencing the strong safety net at the bottom of a cold and isolating free fall. 

Lord, you told the reliable older brother that he had access to all that is Yours. Despite my limited experience, would You increase my capacity to love well without having to first leave You? Could you give me Your heart to willingly, recklessly offer forgiveness like You do? 

Thanks.

Amen