you never stop working

“Thursday is my least favorite day of the week - do you want to know why mum? Because all my friends go to their horse riding lessons after school and I am all alone on the bus on the way home.”

Miss nearly 12 didn’t put much energy into asking us for horse riding lessons as she knows how much they cost, and how much we don’t have that money right now. 

Little did my daughter know or even imagine, that quietly behind the scenes, in the lead up to her birthday, her mama was hatching a plan. Swallowing my pride that never assumes or asks things of others, I announced to the extended family that we were hoping to get a term of riding lessons for the birthday girl, and if they were considering a gift, would they like to rather contribute towards riding lessons?

I was so grateful for any gift to lessen the cost by a little. Quickly, the money piled into our account. In excess. So much so that it covered the whole term. With $5 extra. I am deeply humbled.

I reflected as we were singing the song ‘Waymaker’ last Sunday, the truthful beauty in the words, “Even when I don’t see it you’re working, even when I don’t feel it you’re working, you never stop, never stop working”

Oh the joy it gave me to tell our daughter what her family has done for her, the joy on her face when she found out why she was recording a video of thanks to a list of her favorite people.. 

Oh the joy our Creator must feel when we have those ‘aha’ moments. When in awe we reflect on the masterpiece that He has woven in our mess, even when we didn’t see it or feel it. How much more must His joy be, when even in the dark we keep trusting, solidly hopeful in the knowledge of His goodness. 

I was reading about Abraham and the spectacular promise God gave him about his future descendants. Then cue apparent inaction, for 15 years. I have deep respect for Abraham’s struggle. I relate to his decision to try and make things happen in his own terms when it felt like he had been forgotten, Lord it is so hard to keep trusting when we can’t see or feel You working. 

Lord help me remember the truth, and give me grace for the journey as I wait. All the dreams and promises that I think are from you, but right now seem impossible and dead, thank you for reminding me that you are working, you never stop working - for you are the Way Maker, Miracle Worker, Promise Keeper - the light in my darkness. 

My God, that is who you are.